hol y you guys were here like 2-3 days ago??? hiiiiii.
i’m replying to paras whilst im away for the week, so if i owe you any, please link me.
I’m doing the duke and lux para and also the blu and duke para whilst im away and it’s probably going to be twice as long, so bear with me, aha. I’ll see you in a week. xx
I’m sorry I haven’t been on much lately and I won’t be on much for the next week or even more either. Mums pissed at me and I don’t know how long I’ll have no Internet. I’ll try as be on as much as I can but we’ll see with school going back and all. Sorry but please don’t reopen duke
Yes.. but it’s still hot. You’re pushing it but I cant be mad at you. How’re you feeling?
Still, drunk. Butterfly tattoo from drunkenness. And I’m alright, thanks Ry. Where have you been love?
I’m guessing you were drunk?
“Give me a moment.” she said, raising a finger in the air as she stood up to walk out of the room, but then deciding that it was better to be here, with Duke and have that moment then alone in a hospital hallway. She took a deep breath, trying to remember how much she loved her brother and how much he loved her; the great times they had had and not the great times they could have had, like she usually did. She curled up a bit, hugging her knees to her chest. Aubrey felt so vulnerable right then, as she hadn’t spoken of this at all since it had happened. “I’m sorry to dump such bad news on you right as you woke up. I didn’t mean it.” she said in a soft voice, her vulnerability becoming stronger and making her sound somewhat like a small child.
Taking the lip balm from him, she shook her head with a light laugh. “Let me help you with that.” she said slowly, dabbing the damp and cool washcloth across his face and then placing it on his forehead before swiping some lip balm on his peeling and dry lips. Then she took some lotion into her hands, warming it up before taking his hand in between her own and smoothing it over them. “There, feel any less shitty?” she asked with a smile.
“I know. I know you want to see Blu and he wants to see you too. But until then You’ll have to settle for me.” she said with a small laugh once again, unsure of where this instant happiness was coming from. Probably Duke being alive but still, instant was weird. “I promise I’m not that bad. And he’ll be here really soon.”
As Aubrey inquired for a moment, Duke assembled in silence as he observed her curl up, her chin resting on her knees whilst she hugged her petite legs. He felt repentant for dear Aubrey; he felt as if he should’ve been there to help, prevent her brother’s choice. But he couldn’t turn back time, neither could he take away the pain and guilt she must have been feeling. The best he could do was to attempt and cover the guilt with at least some optimism. With a slight and jerking shake in his head, Duke shot the brunette a small grin as she apologised for her actions. “Don’t… apologise. There’s n-no need… to be sorry” he whispered in a groggy tone. Her hands suddenly came closer to his, taking the lip palm from him with a light laugh. That gave Duke’s mood a little more of the content feeling as he sat up, still so she could apply the lotion to his lips. With the washer placed on his forehead and his hands not sanitised, Duke nodded faintly as she asked if he felt better. Indeed he did.
Chuckling lightly as Aubrey went on about settling for her at the time being, Duke lifted his hand from flat against the bed to his lap, that smile still on his pastel face. “Aaaaaubrey… how can I ever settle for you?” As Duke spoke in his soft tone, he rubbed his fingertips together, feeling the smooth lotion against his skin. The soft touch only made the young man sink into a state of utter peace and comfort; no more dry, crackly and sand-paper like hands. With the tubes still pumping in medicine and oxygen into his system, Duke looked to the ceiling for a moment as he tried thinking of things to talk about, mumble about actually. But his mind state was definitely in a haze, so thinking was hardly an option as he pondered in thought for a few moments. Swallowing the lump in his throat, Duke yet again turned his head so he was gazing upon Aubrey; that smile still spread across his face.
But then the thought of Lux came to his mind; the love he hadn’t seen for what seemed like forever. Since he returned from the trip in Italy, the dear boy hadn’t seen the young woman since. And that thought only made Duke go back into panic. “L-Lux… Is she… okay?” he asked, his dazed voice becoming faster and less understandable by the second. “Fly… Mum… Rifel… is everyone okay? Are you okay? Blu… How is everyoneeee?”
B-but enough about that..yeah? I..I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Uh, has anyone else come see you?
I-I understand. We’ll drop it. Ummm, Blu and … Aubrey have been here. I’ve really just… have been waking up as such.
I just wish he knew how perfect he really is.
I know, bud. I know…
Yeah, I will, don’t worry about that I will. I won’t stop saying it, I won’t stop making him believe it. I know, I have to try, I can’t let him see me like that. I just..I need him to know how much I love him.
Exactly, he needs to know how much you mean to him, and… how much he doesn’t deserve it. That’s what… he needs. It’s okay Rif… it’s o-okay.
But it’s hard to when you see him so broken like that. Yes, Duke. He took my belt and shoved it in my hands telling me to hit him because he was bad. I know I can’t, but what if I fuck up and he does think that?
Then hammer into him that… he doesn’t derseve to be h-hit. Never has and never… will. He needs to understand… that he’s loved too much to b-be hit. Rif, positive thoughts mateeeee. Don’t think of t-the worst. O-or at least try.